heavy rain ahead

很想打部落格
可是又有种难以下手欲言又止的感觉
手贱

身边太多负面能量
弄到我整个人晕晕顿顿
有什么风吹草动
就觉得是冲着我而来
害我一直有种自己挖洞往下跳的感觉
不好不好
这几天好像被什么笼罩着
如果你从远远看到我
我头上应该会有一团乌云
啊~我需要一点二六九来调适心情

Trying so hard figuring out wth is going on
yet i failed miserably *again*
probably because i didn't try hard
try to be as likable as others want
or did i over try?
as things turned out to be awfully fake and exaggerated
maybe i should tone down?
You would probably say "just be yourself"
but when i annoyed/offended you,
you would be bitching all the way from my head to my fingertips
Is not that i dun want to be an all-rounded person
but there are always too many people to please
Zhihan just need some time
and cash i guess
shopping therapy needed
LOL