Deer in Headlight

Recently I am under some sort of depression
but hey, when wasn't I?

There nothing I can do causing me to feel so helpless and defeated

I don't want to be seen as a weak and pessimistic person

because I am not

but now I felt rather vulnerable

I always knew the vast majority is gonna judge you by how you look

My appearance wasn't very appealing to most of the people and I am perfectly aware on that

so I try to make up with a better personality

but apparently I wasn't that kind of guy that runs around spilling rainbows, making everybody entertained

and I am even further away from that kind of laid back and cool personality that is always captivating

hence, causing me to feel confuse because I am stuck in the middle of no where

I am already handicap in socialising and now I don't even have a charming personality to back things up

I am basically doomed from the get go
Like seriously, I should have a sticker on my forehead "DOOMED"

Yes, everybody has their individuality; we don't need to become someone else to stand out

we don't to alter ourselves to fit people's expectation, but don't you want to be someone that is likeable and remember-able? 

you would probably just say:" Be yourself"

and that would lead to another question "Who am I?"

Be myself. Being shy, timid is getting me nothing good

I am trying to break out of this bubble, but it seems to be really difficult to do so

You would probably say:"Give it a few more tries"

How many chances can be given? I need to be able to come out of my comfort zone and I need to do it fast

but I don't have a plan, I am a deer in the headlight

I need to figure things out quickly or I will fail like a car crash.
with a major "BAM"

well at least there's an impact made